A male’s embrace whether it be that of a father, friend or lover is a unique quality. I miss its strength, its tender embrace of friendship and love. It is a void within my identity. A flaw within my limited existence. For all I know of male empowerment is the pain it brings as it engulfs your heart, devours it and throws it away, like a piece of unwanted trash.

My eyes they are wide open
And my love for you is true.
Which is why I am so blinded
By the feelings I have for you.

From the moment we first met
I knew it was to be.
But you were not so sure
About the love you had for me.

I told you that I liked you
And you didn’t know what to say.
You were the one I needed
From the beginning of the play.

But my heart it was still broken
From a prior friendship had.
You could not give the love I needed
And because of this I was sad.

The friendship we agreed upon
Was what we thought was right.
But we both found a love inside
That neither of us could find.

Some would say it’s childish
You can’t love at such an age.
“It will be over in a week”
I say love does not have a gauge.

Now a life without you
I cannot imagine.
My heart will always love you
With the deepest heartfelt passion.

So if ever you are lonely,
Or life’s a little bland
I will always be close by,
To lend a helping hand.

In our lives,
We must have hope.
But when we realise our love is fading,
You find you can’t survive.
For when you want something bad enough,
You hope you will achieve it.
However sometimes it’s not meant for you,
But someone else.
How can this be you ask yourself?
It was only meant for me.
To see you with someone else,
Just breaks my heart in two.
For I sit here and realise,
Realise that I still love you.

You were the one I always wanted.
But your love for me did die.
And like your love for me,
I want to do the same.
I cannot sit back and watch my dream,
Disappear into space.
For the hurt is just too great.
Every time I think of you and her
My heart, it skips a beat and I run out of breath.
It is too hard to fight a battle,
You know you are going to lose.
As losing my hope and faith,
Is something I don’t choose.

I tried to find a card,
To tell you how I feel
To tell you that I care for you,
And what I feel is real.
You are a special person
A friend in every way,
You are a unique individual,
Who I care for more each day.
The moment I first spoke to you
I knew it was to be.
As we sat upon the mountain
And in the stars I could see.
A different kind of sparkle,
A sign from high above.
It floated in the wind,
The message of friendship and love.

So on this very special day,
I just wanted to say
To have heaps of fun
And happy 18th birthday.

N.B – Written for my now husband 🙂